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Is this a struggle that can ever end? Is it possible to reconfigure your innermost compass so that your ‘True North’ lies in the direction your logical mind wants it to? Or is somebody who tries to do this doomed to be miserable until they accept the direction their heart points to and start their journey toward wherever that may take them?
Most people have probably heard of Bear Grylls, the renowned T.V. adventurer. I admit I am an enthusiastic fan of his shows and books myself. He is quite a ‘down to Earth’ unassuming personality, in my opinion, who has drawn a lot of strength in his life from his Christian faith. He talks about this faith briefly in his books and one thing he said has stuck with me. I shall paraphrase, as I can’t remember the exact words:
‘Always follow the desires of your heart as they are divinely given and are there to direct you in life.’
They seem wise words. Indeed, isn’t it easy to do so if your heart tells you something you want to hear? However, there are times in life, I have noticed, that you can receive certain ‘prompts’ or ‘nudges’ that you don’t like. You try to ignore this little voice at first, but it becomes louder until you can’t, so you start ‘wrestling’ with your heart and then misery starts to set in, as it feels like you are not following the course that your compass is pointing out.
I am a very very very (very!) spiritual minded person. This is the type of thing I think about often. That leads me on to thinking ‘does God even exist? Is the idea of an internal compass and God given desires just a made up human concept?’ Ultimately, I cannot know. Some people say they know God exists and others say they know God does not exist. This doesn’t help me. I guess I just have to follow my heart. Oh wait…
However, in the end, I do believe God is there as a loving creator (I am quick to ask for help when I am worried over something! What a hypocrite haha). So I must believe in Divine guidance, which is received through my heart and other sources. Then, I cannot ‘fight with my heart’ and hope to win or be happy. It’s like wrestling with an all powerful will. How could I win?